So many times I sit at my computer editing – and find myself smiling – even laughing – at the people and moments on my screen. Sometimes the pictures make me tear up too – because of the emotions that I so often capture.
I kept trying to edit this particular shoot over the past two weeks – and couldn’t through the tears. A few weeks before I got a phone call from our friends who were going to have to put down their Great Dane Elvis. He had bone cancer – that was just becoming too painful – and they wanted some pictures before they said goodbye.
It’s funny God’s timing – and His placement of certain people and events in our lives. Too often I have these arguments (in my head) with God where I try to tell Him He has it all wrong – and if He’d just do it my way for once maybe He’d see….but regardless, I later see how He orchestrates everything – EVERY DETAIL – even for our little fur babies – with purpose and omnipotence.
And so I arrived at my friends’ home – camera in hand – to capture some memories – and here God was using this to prepare me for some of my own goodbyes. Because when Elvis came running up to my car (granted he’d just had some medication to make him feel better), I got a lump in my throat. I had a sweet old Rottweiler at home with cancer – and I’d been asking myself for awhile now, how soon was too soon, how long was too long – and how would I know when it was time to let Belle go. I think I kinda knew after seeing Elvis that the time was near…and (coincidentally) her condition worsened that week – and we said our goodbyes as well.
So for a few weeks I’d sit down to look at these photos of Elvis – and start crying about my Belle – and I just gave up for awhile. (It’s hard to use photoshop if you can’t see real clearly!)
I told Meredith this afternoon that I’m so jealous she has gorgeous photos like this….what is that saying about the shoemaker’s kids going without? Yeah, so it is the same for the photographer:).